AGAIN WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME

AGAIN I can't sleep! Right now I'm trying to do my homework, which I started at 6 am, because I couldn't fall asleep. I'm freaking out internally about this job prospect I have, I am one of two people they are considering for a young adult librarian position and I don't know if I'm going to be any good at it because I've never worked at a library before. I am worried that I'll get the job and then won't be able to perform the duties because I won't have any idea how to. I'll have some help, but I'd mostly be on my own. Why is it that I have such a hard time coping with new responsibilities? I wish I weren't afraid and could just tackle them head-on without a hitch. And I know it's the same for most people when they start a new job, but I can't help it.

Bah. I also have a cold and just ran out of tissues. LIFE amiright?

So. Sorry about my early morning freak-out session; I think I am going to try to get a couple more hours of sleep before I have to get up for church. At least I only have to be vegetarian for one more week. Then it will be Easter. And properly springtime (if the weather will only comply).

Ignore this post if you don't like reading late-night musings that make no sense.

It's nearly midnight and once again I'm alone with my thoughts. I think having my computer might actually be making it worse, because I'm having that hope of connection with someone but am being disappointed over and over. It's late and no one is on the computer, silly. Except for me.

I hate feeling isolated like this, and I know it's just dumb because I'm not really by myself. I just want to talk to someone and no one is there to talk to at the moment.

Listen to me, all melodramatic.

This is part of the reason why I love books so much--they provide a companion, or give me a place to escape to. I sound like a grammar-school "reading is fun" cliche, but there it is!

I'll spare you all the rest of my late-night musings and get back to my book, which is actually pretty illuminating--it happens to coincide with some things going on in my life right now which is kind of ironic, especially since I bought it about eight months ago. I will finish it tonight! That is my goal.

Good night!

He might be my favorite.

Zaven, about this book: (As female character) "We were lovers. In medieval Germany." (As male character) "No. We weren't. Now get out of my hospital room. I was just in a car accident, I don't need this."

A fun game for lit geeks like me.

I found this when I was surfing StumbleUpon, which is fantastic by the way. I play this game at work during summer reading time, when we have tables and tables of classics for everyone to read in the summer (mostly students who do not want to read them but whatever). Here is the list and the original post I found!

aquascum of the German language LT loosed this list on the English threads, and I can't resist passing it on. Please copy and paste your bolded books read, italicized books not completed, and then sum up with a head count, so to speak. What does the list say about your reading habits?

Who's first?

The BBC apparently believes most people will have only read 6 of the 100 books here:

1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6 The Bible
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare - read some, but not others...
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19 The Time Traveller’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
34 Emma - Jane Austen
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy.
48 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel
52 Dune - Frank Herbert
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth.
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding
69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75 Ulysses - James Joyce
76 The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78 Germinal - Emile Zola
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
80 Possession - AS Byatt.
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87 Charlotte’s Web - EB White
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo

So I've fully read 34 of these titles (not bad but not fantastic--I own 5 of them that I haven't read yet though), and I've partly read 8 of them (mostly because I couldn't bring myself to finish, although I will someday finish reading Austen's Persuasion, I swear).

How did YOU do?

Another gem.

Zaven got a new scally cap (suede!) for his upcoming role in Titanic: The Musical and was checking himself out in the mirror. Out of nowhere, he came up with this gem:

"When I zip up my jacket all the way, I look like I would like poetry and stuff. But when I do this," as he unzips it halfway down his chest, "I look like one of the Boondock Saints."

I am going to break my ban--sort of.

So I've been thinking recently about a book that I would like to not only read, but to own. I know I've been under my book-buying ban for seven and a half months (wow!) and it's become more a way of life than a challenge (I've only REALLY broken it once, and of course I haven't read that book yet--but I promise I will soon!). But this one I have heard about from enough different people and publications to make me use the remainder of my Christmas B&N gift card on an actual book instead of magazines or CDs or cafe food.

The book I'm talking about is Eve Ensler's new one, I Am an Emotional Creature. I read about it in two of my favorite magazines (BUST and Glamour, which are two fairly different audiences) and heard about it from a crazy lady customer at B&N (via a coworker of mine). The crazy lady customer asked my coworker, an older woman, if she had read it, and when she said she hadn't, the crazy one said "Let me buy this for you--you NEED to read it!" She ended up disappearing after going to the bathroom, and my coworker thinks it was some kind of scam, but I think she was just SO IN LOVE with the book that she wanted every woman to read it. Which I understand, in a weird way. I think I would offer to buy a book for someone if I thought it would make a positive difference in their life. I'm willing to make that bet with this one, and buy it for myself.

I may or may not post a review afterward, but I'll at least put one up on Goodreads.com so you can read it there. (And also, you should join Goodreads because it's fanastic.)