Sunday, March 28, 2010

AGAIN WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME

AGAIN I can't sleep! Right now I'm trying to do my homework, which I started at 6 am, because I couldn't fall asleep. I'm freaking out internally about this job prospect I have, I am one of two people they are considering for a young adult librarian position and I don't know if I'm going to be any good at it because I've never worked at a library before. I am worried that I'll get the job and then won't be able to perform the duties because I won't have any idea how to. I'll have some help, but I'd mostly be on my own. Why is it that I have such a hard time coping with new responsibilities? I wish I weren't afraid and could just tackle them head-on without a hitch. And I know it's the same for most people when they start a new job, but I can't help it.

Bah. I also have a cold and just ran out of tissues. LIFE amiright?

So. Sorry about my early morning freak-out session; I think I am going to try to get a couple more hours of sleep before I have to get up for church. At least I only have to be vegetarian for one more week. Then it will be Easter. And properly springtime (if the weather will only comply).

5 comments:

MGall31087 said...

Don't worry you'll get the job and you'll be great! You kinda mentioned it in your blog but I'm in the same situation getting into a job and having no idea what to do. People are there to help you and you'll get the hang of it. Don't stress everything works out for the best :)

Molloy said...

About a year after I got married, I had a "career" change. The new job included a significant jump in pay, yet I had no idea what I was going to do. For the first week, I had a nervous stomach every morning before my morning commute. What advice I can pass on is limited to selecting some anti-anxiety medication other than paxil--it gives you wicked dry-mouth.

Seriously, yo have the benefit of being up for a job in your field. Your passion, if nothing else, will see you through. :)

Tahleen said...

Thank you guys. I'm glad I have support for my melt-downs and advice from people who've been through what I might have to go through! :)

Sadako said...

Yeah! Hugs and tissues!

Spread Positivity. said...

"Thoughts become things, so think the good ones". Mike Dooley